if the winter could talk, what would he sound like? is his voice cold like the wind, is it bitter or sharp like the trees without leaves?what stories would he know? of people wandering through the forest and loving the icy breeze, of couples holding each other tight and sharing their warmthwhat do you think about when the first snow falls? I remember your heartbeat right next to mine, snowflakes fill the sky and the sound of footsteps in freshly fallen snow, hot chocolate after a walk in the freezing cold and the smell of christmas all over the house

i am no longer available for things that make me feel like shit

Loving yourself is not an easy thing to do. Some days will be better than others while some days will be much worse. try to be kind to yourself. It takes time.

In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer

We are made of all those who have built and broken us.

"Apathy is a curious state... it is a way to survive defeat without material damage." - Rollo May (Love and Will)

What maltreated and traumatised [people] need most is a healthy community to buffer the pain, distress, and loss caused by their earlier trauma. What works to heal them is anything that increases the number and quality of a [person’s] relationships. What helps is consistent, patient, repetitive loving care. … For years mental health professionals taught people that they could be psychologically healthy without social support, that ‘unless you love yourself, no one will love you.” … The truth is you cannot love yourself unless you have been loved or are loved. the capacity to love cannot be built in isolation. … Before they can make any kind of lasting change at all in their behaviour, they need to feel safe and loved.” — Bruce Perry in The Boy Who Was Raised As A Dog